during melanie joy’s “carnism - why we love dogs, eat pigs and wear cows”-presentation in münster yesterday, i felt things i wasn’t expecting to feel so strongly. it’s so difficult to describe what i felt. i was sort of similar to what i felt during a presentation on the vegan fair in essen (germany) last year, but it was more this time.
seeing someone like melanie in front of you, someone who puts into words what you can’t explain, someone who feels what you feel but is able to share this feeling and knowledge with others, is such an overwhelming feeling. it wasn’t that i learned tons of new things; it was more like everything was put into one presentation in such a beautiful way.
but the presentation wasn’t all rainbows and butterflies. when we watched a four minute undercover video from factory farms, i felt physically ill. i think i started shaking and i looked away. i wanted to close my ears too but i couldn’t. i was staring at the floor what seemed like an eternity. i heard the screams. i felt their pain. i connected. and i wanted to cry. i was so close but i didn’t wanna do that in front of everyone.
at the end of the lecture, people asked melanie further questions and one girl said something that i could so relate to:
she asked melanie if she’s also experienced that when you’re living as a vegan, it becomes more and more difficult to deal with non-vegan people, especially when they’re close to you. and i’ve been experiencing that, too. a lot. it actually really scares me sometimes, cause it makes me feel more and more lonely, but it’s true.
still, what i take from yesterday is a lot of positivity, too. melanie inspired me. and i hope her lectures/presentations and her books inspire many many other people, especially those who haven’t made the connection yet. those who haven’t closed the gap yet. i really really do.